European Hick

Wow, I haven't written anything in a while! So we just got back from thanksgiving break, except I didn't go anywhere anyway so I was actually glad that school was starting again! But I did get to drive the harvester like every day of break so that was a lot of fun!
Life is good. very busy...Today we have like a half day of school so we can practice for a concert tomorrow. So then we have 2 concerts on Sabbath and then on Sunday it's fall picnic! So exciting! It's pretty much my favorite time of year! Except for Christmas... I cant wait for Christmas break! :)
So I realized today that my blog really has no rhyme or reason, I don't stay on one topic and it's just sorta...random! But then again I'm pretty random myself, and since this blog is really more of a diary then a blog I see no problem with being weird. :)
I have so many things to look forward to right now, I'm a person who really likes to daydream about the future. I love it! Seriously...I would rather work alone then with people because when I'm alone I can think. Work is like  my favorite time of day just cause I can think during it.
Oh guess what! I had to write this poem about where I'm from. So I wrote a poem called "European Hick" I figure that pretty much covers all the bases of where I'm from. :P All in all it's really a pretty lame poem and not my best work but hey, I had to write it in like an hour because I wrote another poem but I didn't like it so I erased it and had to write a whole new one! And if you think I'm posting it your so wrong! :P Anyways I gotta get to class. Byeee

Fire Drill

Well I fugure I'm wide awake now so I might as well post.
There I was, not 10 minutes ago, lying in my bed, just drifting off to sleep when all of the sudden "BLLLRIIIIIN! BLLLRIIIIING!!! BLLLRIIIIING!" After being at Fountainview for 3 years they finally got around to having a fire drill at the girls dorm...tonight. So I had to run down 2 flights of stairs in my bathrobe and bare feet. It was freezing! So after standing outside for like 10 minutes we were finally allowed back inside, but the sirens were still blaring for another 5 minutes. So here I am, wide awake and needing to be up at 5:30. I'm helping make breakfast tomorrow! So I'm gonna go count sheep or something...but that's weird...Maybe I'll count something I like. I'll count pickles.

I survived senior survival!

I survived! Yay!!!!!
So I finally went on senior survival, after waiting and watching and many conspiracy theories, we finally left. It was 6:12 AM, I was sitting on Julie's bed watching her curl her hair when the announcement went off. Mrs Bells sweet calm voice came over the speaker saying "Attention seniors, you have 8 minutes to be at the school building" and that was when chaos broke loose. I jumped opff her bed and ran through the halls flying up to my room 3 floors up screaming "I'm gonna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!" all the lower graders peeked their heads out of their rooms to watch our frantic scamper of trying to get our things together. They laughed at us.

So 8 minutes later we were all crammed on the bus and headed to who knows where before dawn, before breakfast, and more importantly before a shower. When we finally got to our location Julie and I found a nice tree stump on which to make our home. We spent the rest of the day gathering leaves for our shelter, in my hunt for leaves I came across mushrooms, after getting them approved my Mr Rass they were my main staple for the 4 days we were out there in the wilderness. It was cold, I was hungry and I even lost 7 pounds, but it was so much fun! I would never do it again by myself but I would totally do it again with my class. We got so much closer, I got to know people that I'd gone to school with for years but never really gotten to know.
The last night we were there was definitely the weirdest. Julie and I shared a shelter, now the shelter we had to build was so small that we had to sleep completely straight and if you moved your knees you would potentially knock down your shelter. So we slept as if in a straight jacket, but somehow, sometime in the night, I somehow got all the way down to the place where my knees were supposed to be and then I popped up out of my shelter and into the moonlight, I don't remember how I got there, but somehow I found myself with half my body out of my shelter, I tried to scoot back in but it was too tight a squeeze and I couldn't make it. So I sat there wondering what to do, after some thought and a few hallucinations/dreams, I simply curled up right there and pulled the leaves over my head and burrowed down for the night. Surprisingly, it was the warmest night I'd spent out there in the wilderness. But in the morning however, Julie couldn't find me, there she was sleeping right next to me and I had simply disappeared, she knew I couldn't have left throughout the doorway because her body WAS the door. She went looking for me and finally found me, buried in leaves halfway in the foot of our shelter.
Needless to say it was quite the camping trip.

Do YOU have an opinion?

I decided today that I need to change my news website. All I get on yahoo is random stuff that I really couldn't care less about. For example, here is today's headlines; top 5 games for the iPhone 5, low-fat foods aren't as healthy as you think, and a story about Miley Cyrus's new haircut. I mean really!?
America is severely going downhill if it's so caught up in celebrity drama and pointless entertainment to see whats really going on in the world. Right now I'm righting an essay on "the innocence of Muslims" and what I think about this whole situation. I must say it's very hard to be unbiased, it's hard to say what I want to say without coming across too harsh or sounding like a ditz and saying "what we need is world peace!".
I really should be more patriotic, but the way I see it is that there's no perfect country. Why should I fight tooth and nail for a country on earth? All kingdoms will one day fall, all leaders will eventually make mistakes, I'm patriotic for heaven, it's the only perfect place.
I have a lot of opinions, one of my biggest pet peeves is when people don't have an opinion, they just don't care. I mean sure, if someone asked me if I liked Britney spears better as a blonde or brunette I gotta say I don't really care enough to have an opinion, mainly because I don't want to waste brain power on something so shallow.But this summer I was talking to this one guy over chat, he wasn't much for substantial conversation so me being me I brought up a controversial subject and asked for his opinion. He said he didn't have one, he also said that he liked to just agree with everyone, that way everyone liked him.
It goes without saying that this kind of logic goes against every fiber of my being. I'm opposite, if someone has an opinion even if it differs from mien I would like them more then someone who has no opinion whatsoever just to play chameleon to those around them.

Not real sure what this post is about...

So tomorrow is the last day of filming! Ever! Well...for me at least. Thankfully I don't have to be a part of winter filming. Ohhhh...wait. I forgot, I have to film discussions later this year, aw boo.
I'm getting in a Christmas mood already! I cant wait for Christmas break! Marriage and family class isn't helping, it's just making me want a family more and more, so I can start my own traditions. Yeah yeah I know, I'm a dork! Typical girl, whatever. I have never taken such good notes before that class started!

But right now I decided to concentrate on things closer in my future. Did I ever mention I'm a day dreamer? Majorly...Whatever I do, you can pretty much guarantee I've thought about for a long time. I kinda wish I was more spontaneous, I wish I was just sitting there one day and then decided "hey I think I'll go to Paris tomorrow" and then buy a ticket and just go. But I guess that would mean I need to be spontaneous AND rich. Oh well...I guess I'll just be me, everyone else is already taken.
OO! SO international supper is coming up! I think I'm gonna do a Southern USA booth...Just because I really don't want to dress up in a chef outfit again...And it'll make my grandma proud! Especially if we had black eyed peas and collard greens. I also thought of just doing regular USA and serving hamburgers and fries, maybe wear a fat suit....and socks and sandals and a baseball cap, a fanny pack, and baggy shorts. With a football shirt!
I think I should be more into sports, if I was I would be into football. Mostly because it's fun to play even thought I really get confused in the games on TV. All I've ever played is mud football, but one day I will go to a real football game, and I'll understand everything that's going on, and I'll have a foam finger and a hot dog....Veggie hot dog. I know football is supposed to be all manly and everything, but some things will never change. Meat is gross.

Random Ranting

Today has been mostly spent in applying for things and registering for other things. Because apparently unless I want to pay and extra 30 bucks every time I want my ACT score sent to a college, I need to apply to that college and tell the ACT people to send my score there right away. This is all so confusing...
My computer is so used to me applying for colleges that as soon as I start to type a word it knows all the answers to put in right away. I think I've narrowed myself down to two colleges. I realize your probably laughing at me right now because I'm doing all this like 5 months before I need to. But I'm a planner. And I like to explore all my options ahead of time. So here I am applying for college, registering for GYC, ACT and all kinds of other random things. And I think I've decided what I'm gonna be....I think. I just hate having to say "I don't know" to every question people ask about my future. As soon as they find out your in grade 12 you get bombarded with "Where are you going to college? What are you majoring in? What are you planning to do?" I DON'T KNOW!!! Sheesh...people even wanna know when I'm gettign a boyfriend. Ya know what people...None of your business. People are so nosy...
Anyways! On a lighter note. Hmm.... Oh yeah! Week of prayer is this week! Scott Moore is coming for it, it's really exciting. I know it will be a huge blessing!
I would write more but it's 2:00 and I still need to clean my room, finish ym essay and write a rough draft for my identity paper. Adios!

Boxers

The dorm was in an uproar today because Katie found a pair of boys boxer briefs in her backpack. Everyone was freaking out and laughing and screaming and crying...They ran around the dorm holding the unmentionables at the end of a stick. Props to whoever pulled that prank, if only I had thought of it first...Girls are so easy to prank, they scream when it's not even scary. OK yes...so I scream whenever someone pokes me...But at least I don't cry over a pair of boxers.
I only had one class today because we get most of the day off due to filming all week long. It's really nice, except for the fact that I've been searching for my coat all day! After I moved back from the other dorm I seem to have lost my winter coat, and it's gettign colder by the day! It was pretty too... :( I really would like to know where things go when they disappear. Do they party somewhere? Cause wherever my coat is I'm guessing my flats,scarves, books,towels, and shorts are not far behind. Every time I move I lose so much stuff! I miss it. :( I just found my violin case that went missing in grade10, it was with the filming cases. I was mad.
I think you should call me. Yes you...you with the face! I'm bored...So if any of you get the urge to be random then you should give me a call! If you don't have my number then don't call....cause I probably don't know you and it would be weird if you called.

Akward!

I've had an extremely random week! I think I'm overtired because I keep having the best blonde moments....For example: it was night time and I was laying in my bed with my eyes closed and I rolled over and opened my eyes in the dark and all I saw was a grayish white. I freaked out for maybe 2 seconds thinking my eyes had taken quite a drastic turn for the worse before realizing that I was staring at the wall.

During work last week we were pouring 7 year old smushed jellied peach guts into compost buckets. We were working on a table and we had to change buckets every 5 minutes or so, so me being the delusional person that I am decided that I was buff enough to move the big bucket of peach goo to the ground. But alas my strength failed me and I managed to pick it up and then the weight was too heavy so it came down with a thud....and the rotten peach goo splashed out of the bucket and all over me!
But every once in a while it's good to reflect on other peoples blonde moments, so that's what we'll do now. :) A friend and I were walking down the road following Mr Rass who was teaching our class about wild edibles. I was feeling really warm when everyone else was cold so I asked my friend if she would feel my forehead to see if I had a fever, she missed the fever part and looked very confused, I repeated my request so she awkwardly poked my forehead, I gave her a weird look so she started petting my forehead. Finally she realized what I was asking and it all worked out, but it was pretty hilarious to be standing there on the road with someone petting your face.

I WILL SURVIVE!

Yes...that's right, that time of year is back again, when the seniors bravely face the wild world of the woods. And this time, it's my turn.
So yesterday was Sunday so Mr James told us we'd be doing training all afternoon, which wasn't a very welcome announcement. He told us to bring our packs, and then all of the sudden...WHABAM! "ATTENTION SENIORS, YOU ARE NO LONGER MEETING AT THE POND PLEASE LOAD THE BUS IMMEDIATELY"  eep. SO we ran frantically stuffing garbage bags and random food into our already full packs, I personally managed to fit 2 potatoes in mine. :) Yeeeeah...didn't think that one through reallly well.
So we load the bus and there was an odd number of guys and girls so I got the horrific duty of sitting with...wait for it...A boy! I know, it was a horrifying experience but somehow I lived to tell of it.
So we finally get there and Mr Rass starts teaching us about wild edibles. I personally chose not to eat the grey moss hanging from the tree...My mama taught me good. But I did eat a cattail! Unfortunately I found that you dont eat the fluffy part...so I got somewhat of a hairball! But it's all OK because we got a video.

Then we moved on to building shelters, we slaved away at our shelter until Mr James came and told us we were doing it all wrong...It had to be A shaped. Boo. So we started on the new one but unfortunately everyone thought their way was best. So I resorted top just picking up pine needles and leave the politics up to the rest of the group. Julie sat on a rock with her pine bough pom-poms chanting "Build that shelter! Build it good! Gooooo survival!" Who knew survival was a spectators sport?
Anyway, long story short when we finished our shelters they had us board the bus for school again...PSYCHE! Senior survival's not this week...

Vienna

Hello from Vienna Austria!
I'm on my way back to the states so I'm in the Vienna airport currently. This airport is so nice! It's quiet and there's these awesome really comfy sorta leather bed thingamajigs all over the place! And the cafe I'm sitting near is playing all my favorite songs! :) The only thing that would make this airport experience better is if I had slept in the last 24 hours....or eaten. But I got a pretzel! :)
Problem here is that it's freezing! I mean seriously guys it's August! It's supposed to be hot...apparently Austria didn't get the memo.
Getting through the airport in Albania was quite the adventure! Apparently people don't realize that they should form a line and not just rush the ticket lady all at once. Everyone was pushing and shoving to try to get to the poor woman. At first I did the whole me thing and tried to stay out of peoples way and get in the end of the line but nobody was using a line...So I figured I'd never get there if I kept that up so I just kinda shimmied my way into the crowd and hey guess what, I got through! Yay!
I'll just be happy to finally get back to school and not have to worry about staying awake to watch your bag.

Senior Year!

Wow, so there's only like 10 more days left of me being in Albania! I gotta say, I'm really happy to be going back to school next week, I miss people! I miss a few people a whole lot. And I'm completely stoked to be starting senior year! I'm a lil bit scared to graduate but a whole lot excited! But I guess I'm getting a little ahead of myself, 1st semester hasn't even started yet and I'm talking about being done!
So, here are some of my biggest highlights of senior year. #1-Rooming with Julie, we're gonna have so much fun! And it will really be nice to live with someone who I'm compatible with, who wont look at me weird when I'm doing something crazy, who wont snap blackmail photo's while I'm asleep, who gets along fine with my bazaar study habits of making everything into a story, even electrons! Someone who sings just as loud as I do in the shower, and who will go running with me every morning! Lets just say she's amazing!
#2- call me crazy but I'm really stoked to be learning how to do CPR, write a huge identity paper in which I can completely be me, and take a class to learn how to be married and raise kids.
#3- I'm just happy to be alive! I think it's going to be a really great year! Gosh, I need to stop being such an optimist! Actually...take that back, I like it. It's fun. :)

Stalkers and Bad hair

What started as a normal little shopping trip ended in DISASTER. (OK so I'm a drama queen...shoot me.)

Mom and I decided to go shopping, and since it was really hot out I dragged mom to the city bus stop. One thing you should know is that bus's in Albania are very different from buses in America. We climbed on but in the crowd me and Mom got separated, but it wasn't really a big deal cause she was still on the same bus. I didn't really need to grab the handle since there was so many people squished in there I probably could have held myself up that way but I didn't really want to...Coincidentally I just happened to be squished up against this guy in his late 20's early 30's, and he kept staring! Staring and grinning like a cat in a bird house, so I tried to look everywhere else, wow what a nice pair of shoes that lady has! And that peeling paint on the bus wall is really interesting! But alas! It would not be that easy, he asked my name so I pretended not to hear, so he asked again but when someone is pressed up against you in your face it's really hard to pretend you cant hear them. So finally I answered him as short as possible "Moriah" I know it was stupid to tell him but I completely forgot about using fake names! And I'm really bad at being rude to people...I should be meaner!

So anyway, he couldn't hear me and thought my name was Mary, so I let him think that.He kept flirting and I kept trying to ignore him but apparently he cant take a hint. Most Albanian guys are like that come to think of it... He kept trying to talk to me but it was so loud I couldn't hear him, but before he could make me hear his question we pulled up to a stop, it wasn't mien but I jumped off anyway hoping to get rid of him. But he got off too...Mom didn't get the memo that I was off till the bus was pulling away and she jumped off while it was moving. Go Mom! Good thing too, I didn't wanna be stuck with that guy alone!
Mom and I decided this would be a good time to cross the street, guess who crossed too! Yeah...He did. So we decided to turn, he turned too, so we went down a side road and saw some friends so we stopped to talk. I thought we had lost him but then there he came walking down the road! He slowly walked by and then stopped, we said goodbye to our friends and left the way we had come and of course he turned around too and followed us back out. By then it was getting just a little bit creepy, so we went down another alley and Mom pulled me into a random hair salon.
So I got stuck in a chair to have my bangs cut, my side bangs which I only needed a tiny trim on. But nooooo...Instead the lady chopped them all off! So now I have too short straight across bangs. And I will wear a bag over my head for the rest of the summer...OK, so I'll pin them up, but it's just as bad!
My head is officially ruined but the good news is we lost the stalker guy.

Perfect Peace

Stay close by My side,
Keep your eyes on Me,
Though this life is hard,
I will give you perfect peace,

In this time of trial,
Pain that noone sees,
Trust me when I say,
I will give you perfect peace,

And you'll never walk alone,
And you'll never be in need,
Though I may not calm the storms around you,
You can hide in Me,

Burdens that you bear,
Offer no relief,
Let Me bear your load,
Cause I will give you perfect peace,

Stay close by My side,
And you'll never walk alone,
Keep your eyes on Me,
And you will never be in need,
Though this life is hard,
Know that I will always give you perfect peace,
I will give you perfect peace...

Graduation...crazy!

Well.....it's here. Graduation. Not mine of course but it marks somethign special in my life, I'll be a senior in a couple hours. Crazy! Those are some big shoes to fill, this graduating class has had such a huge impact on my life, I cant stand to see them go but I know that even if I dont see them again here I'll see them in heaven.
But tere's still one or two that I'm goign to miss like crazy! They will always have a place in my heart.
Last night had to be the best night ever! It was so amazing...I cant even describe it.
Tomorrow I'll be getting on a plane flying to Albania, crazy! This is all just so crazy and it came so fast! Makes me wonder how fast my own grad will come! And then goign to college and getting married, having kids, it's all gonna go by so fast. It helps remind em to savor the little moments of every day because time is rushing by so fast that it's all I can do to grab those little moments as they rush by.

Wild Ride

So today we were filming down by the river. It was kinda a pain to stand on the pointy rocks during all the takes and people kept ripping their skirts on the pointy rocks...made me kinda paranoid! Anyways, so then they decided to film the next song in the orchard so we had to hike back up the hill. See the river is down past the pond past MG, down a little gravel road to a junk yard and past that, then down another road to the river. So naturally walking back up that is a royal pain! And it just so happened that Craig was going by in the pickup truck that was loaded high with cellos and a piano, so Chris, Brenan and me and Julie hopped on the back. Only the boys forgot to duck down so they were told to get off, but unknown to Craig there was 2 little girls hanging on for dear life as he chugged up the hill trying to outrun the boys. He was really gunning it dude! I thought any moment I would lose my grip on that lil cello and come tumbling down! We kept waiting for a moment to tuck and roll but that moment never came! Lemme tell you, it is an art to crouch on a tiny ledge, in a skirt and flip flops, while holding a cello as a lifeline! Thankfully we made it all the way to the orchard and hopped off, mission accomplished.

Blonde Moment!

So Moriah  was trying to do laundry. Simple task right? WRONG! SO I had about 3 loads of laundry to do so after they were all washed I attempted to put them in the dryer, since I had so many loads I had to go to a laundry machine in the basement that I haven't used since sophomore year. So I tried to find the right button to turn it on, hard job lemme tell ya! I spent about 10 minutes pushing and pulling on the timer knob before it finally popped completely off. so I transferred my clothes to the next machine...same thing happened, finally I looked up and saw the button that said "On".

So bad days  are always great. Anyways, I read something this week that  really blessed me and I really wanted to share it with you. So I was reading randomly through my ipods books and I came across a quote by Ellen White that says that we shouldn't bear our souls to our friends, but that God should be the one who we take all our troubles to. Humans may fail us but God never will.
But I realized last night that God sometimes sends people to comfort us when we need it. Last night I was really frustrated and upset and altogether feeling useless, as soon as I got to my room I locked my door and fell to my knees to talk to God, somewhere in our talk I started crying. About that time there was a knock on my door, it was shenel, she's an amazing sweet person but I dont have the chance to talk to her allot so we're not super close. I think this was the first time she'd ever knocked on my door. SO we talked for a while and something that I really appreciated is that she didn't try to say "poor baby!" or tell em that everyone who frustrated me was just a jerk. She made me laugh and we talked about the situation a little bit.
I was really thankful for her, and it was really amazing to see who God worked that situation out. It wasn't just one of my normal friends, it was someone I rarely talk to, that way I know that God sent her.

Happy birthday meeeeeee

I had the most amazing birthday ever! So I woke up at about 5:30 and from my dead alarm clock and the beeping from the dorm lobby quickly gathered that the power was off. I was thinking "great, what a start to my birthday". So I had to get ready with a flashlight, and was forced to attempt straightening my hair with nothing but water, a hair brush, and some hair spray.
So I went to breakfast, remembering that Mrs T had promised to make perogies on my birthday, but since the power was off we had cold cereal. So there I was...chatting aimlessly with Chris while pouring honey on my cheerios. When I heard someone behind me say my name I turned around and was standing face to face with this guy with grey hair and glasses and a big belly, a very familiar person, it took a second for it to click before I screamed very high pitched and hugged him for a very long time while Eddy videoed the whole thing.
So in case you didn't catch it, my Dad came to surprise me for my birthday. And he brought presents! it was cool. Some other things happened too to make it an AWESOME birthday, but I dont need to go into details right now.
I need to head off to chemistry and get distracted by a piano along the way

Nuttin But a Hound Dog!

Hey ya'll! I have to go to work so this is just a quick howdy do! Spring break is upon us and it's gonna be really fun! :) I shall make it fun if it kills me! Well...not quite that far...but I will make it fun! I'm gonna get so much done. Anyway enough of that since you already heard it.

There's really nothing that exciting going on here. I guess I just have a boring life, I mean seriously the highlight of my week was that the cafe served pie. Actually it's been quite a week for food! Pie, banana splits, burritos, etc and the nice thing being since I work cafe I get to make this yummy food!
Every morning when I walk into work I get the job of cleaning the dining room, this involves wiping tables, putting up chairs, sweeping mopping etc. And a lesson I have yet to learn is to either close the cafe doors or keep a careful eye out when your mopping and sliding around on the floor like a crazy person singing Elvis Presley...and it doesnt help when all you know of the song is the one line so you have to repeat it over and over until you move on to John Denver.
Anyway people keep walking in right about the time I trip over my feet while trying to moonwalk and sing "I aint nuttin but a hound dog!" I think the lesson in this is that....Everyone had their different talents...mine is most definitely not moon walking.

Spring Break

HELLO!!!!!!!!
It's sooooooooooo beautiful outside today! It's started warming up and being all springyfull! I'm really excited because it's almost spring break! I should probably be bummed that I'm staying here but I'm kinda psyched still. I can do another spring cleaning of my room! Ok...I'm officially a dork, my reason for being excited isn't just for spring cleaning really! I swear! I can also go outside, I enver get to go outside because I have an inside job, so being outside is a real treat for me, and hopefully I can get a tan? I'm the whitest I've ever been in my whole life! I guess it comes with always being indoors. ANyhoo, I'm gonna do a bunch of studying and get ahead in chemistry too. Wow, I really nave no life. HELP!!!! What do I do??? Most people my age are excited for spring break because they're gonna go party on the beach or something and I'm excited for spring cleaning and extra school work. Ok...So I need something exciting to do. A big project...Like....make Popsicles....Yeha thats it. Ok everyone! Announcement! I'm a geek.

Pictures! Not from this week, just random one's.

ELLO!

Well I had a very...yeah here's how my day went!
The seniors left on their mission trip which was obviously sad..ok so I cannot in good conscious say that was sad to see all of them go. But some of them it was quite hard to part with for 2 n a half weeks! SO then I went to work...it turns out there was a rand total of 2 other people working cafe! So my work supervisor turned on this well I guess you could call it music...it was kinda folksy and country but with people who couldn't sing.
I must say you really now you have a boring life when all day the thing you look forward to most is going to sleep. And then...we start it all again.
But on eh bright side I'm going home this summer! I have so much planned...I'm gonna do a ton of classes so I can get more credits and maybe next year have a free class period. And I'm gonna study for the ACT. And do a bunch of things I've always wanted to do but never had time for! Like...plant a flower garden, go through all my old kid stuff and decide what to keep and what to toss, make amazing food and take pictures of it, and I think I should give my dog a Mohawk...and then I'm gonna do a bunch of thing that I've missed doing because I dont have time or I'm too old or whatever! Like play my keyboard, play in the sprinklers, cook real food...as in ethnic food...food that doesn't rotate monthly. And I'm gonna go camping in the mountains...Thatll be fun.
Honestly I'm just psyched not to be working all summer again. This is the last summer I have to be a teenager! And when I say that I mean that next summer I'll have a job, be in college and be all grown up and boring. I like the idea of beng on my own though.

Anyhoo....I miss the seniors already! Er...some of them...a couple of them. *grins* But I guess it IS kinda nice to have everything so quiet, I dunno what I'll do when they graduate! It'll be terrible...
OOOO!!!!! Guess what! It's almost my birthday! I'll be all old. :) Birthdays aren't very exciting here though...people sign loudly and obnoxiously to you whenever they get the chance and you kinda wanna crawl in a hole and that's it. That is your birthday....I'm gonna make my birthday special all by myself. I'm gonna party it up with my teddy bear and a book..maybe some tea. Yeah that's right, be jealous.

On My Heart

So yesterday I had a really bad day, I couldn't figure out why everything was going wrong but by the end of the day I felt completely hopeless. It was then that I remembered that I had asked God for trials to build my character...I do this regularly and each time promptly forget that I asked for it...literally. How many times do I have to keep doing this before it gets through my thick head???

One of the things I was struggling with was Gods love, it seemed to me as though God must not love me. But as I was kneeling by my bed last night pleading with God, the the quote popped in my head "our greatest fear for the future is to forget how God has led us in the past". Here I am thinking that God isn't love, when throughout my life he has proved the utter opposite. It was almost as if a little tiny voice was saying in the back of my mind "why dont you trust me?". My goal is to make that little tiny voice into a BIG VOICE, a voice that controls my every action. It's almost as f I've pushed that voice further and further away so that It's barely audible.
Anyway...Lets just say that my christian experience isn't the most easy thing in the world. Sometimes I wish that it was as easy as pilgrims progress. I know...He had to fight giants and lions and demons and ghouls and all other sorts of dangers....But honestly if I knew that Christ was waiting at the end and if I made it through I would be saved then I could do it. I would rather fend of monsters on the journey then to never know for certain sure that I'm going to heaven. I know that if I'm a real christian I should know that but I dont...I'm not perfect. I want to be with all my heart but I'm not...not even close. I guess it's just an upward battle that I'll have to keep fighting.
I wanna be a martyr....I think that would be the best way to die. Sorry...I know thats a little bit random but I've been thinking about it alot. A friend and I were playing a game where we made a list of ways we could possibly die...morbid right? But anyway...I could get shot or trampled by a cow or drown or get into a car accident, or get killed by an axe murderer or blow up in chemistry or die in my sleep or...well you get the point. My friend said that he'd like to die saving someones life but just think about it, if you were a martyr you could save peoples eternal life just by your witness. I hope that if I died like that I would be all strong and singing from the stake or whatever...but I'd probably be screaming bloody murder...I mean sheesh...it's gotta hurt right? But God could take away the pain if that was the best thing. But then again I dont want to die...I want to live to see Jesus come. I think it'd be so boring to be coming up at the same time when all the dead people are coming outa their graves and the mountains are crumbling and the angels are blowing trumpets. I wanna be there for the whole thing! I know that we're supposed to be like....hidign in caves and whatnot but I would so much rather be in prison. I mean...Jesus suffered so much for me that I want to repay him somehow...I know it would hurt him to see me suffer but I wouldn't really mind I think...Just to show him how much I love him, that I'm willing to die for him, to suffer for him.
Anyway...Sorry if this is kinda random and personal, I think I've said it before but this blog is basically my diary...I write whatever is on my heart so you pretty much get a peek into my mind.

Future

Well I haven't written in quite while! We've been on tour in Las Vegas.
I'm really glad to be "home" after being gone for almost 2 weeks, it starts to take a toll on you when you wait in a line of 20 people for a shower.
I have sooo much to do today it aint even funny...I need to finish all my chemistry homework and then study for the test we have tomorrow, then I need to do all my socials homework or at least make a dent in it, do my spring cleaning because for some odd reason I just feel like having a really clean room, and me and Julie are gonna go to the gym this afternoon! I'm hungry...I just bought some ramen though! I (shrewdly) having no Canadian or American money bought it with my Italian. :) I mean seriously I'm probably not going back to Italy for at least a year.
I'm trying to decide what to do this summer, I sent an application into youth rush to go canvassing this summer but I'm not sure if that's Gods plan or not. But I know that he'll open and shut doors where he sees fit so I don't need to stress over if I get it or not. The one problem that keeps popping back up is that I need to do a bunch of credits this summer in order to graduate. So...I'm going to do the unthinkable! I'm not going anywhere for spring break so I'm going to see how much I can get done during that time. I still have to work half the day but hopefully I can spend the rest of the day studying. I know that I always say I'm going to do things and most of the time it never gets done but I'm breaking that habit!
I've also been thinking more about college and I've decided that I need to stop limiting God. I've kinda told him to pick between my 2 choices but..what if he wants me to go to school in Morocco? Or maybe not go at all and go straight into mission work. I don't know. All I know is that I want to go to the mission field as soon as college ends. Or I might go a year after my first year as a student missionary. If I got o CUC I want to take elementary education and use it in the mission field. Or if I end up going to southern I'll take missions. So far I think those are the only 2 that have stuck out to me as serious options. Walla walla and Andrews are too expensive. And union...well I don't want to go there. All in all...I really hope it's Gods plan for me to go to CUC but as I said before it's up to God.

Game night!

Today has been a very busy day for me. I'm practicing reading my speech that I have to give opn Monday and it's very scary! I was practicing hand gestures in the mirror while I read but I got distracted and started singing a song and dancing around my room to veggie tales..then Raina came in and we had a nutella party, except it was hard cuz I put it in the fridge so we dug it out with a pocket knife. I really need to go finish marking my GC but I'm gonna do that afetr I get back from the secret project I'm workign on. So I'll probably start around 4:30 or so...and by then Saraiah will probably be back from the airport so then we'll talk and I'll get distracted some more. Hey at least I'm planning my distractions ahead of time.
OO! And I got my ipod back from he deans so that was exciting..and I cleaned my room I was very proud of myself for that feat! Even organized my closet...kinda. :P
So last night was games night, we had 3 games that we were supposed to rotate between in our groups. But I stayed outside in the active game the whole time because honestly the group thinking games are'nt that fun to me. See, there is always the leaders who take control and figure everything out and then there's people like me who kinda sit in the background awkwardly trying to help. So I opted for sneaking into the other groups action game. It was pretty fun! We played capture the flag and dare base. A bunch of people were too scared to go accross the line and risk gettign caught but I got sick of standing still so I walked right across their line and got caught and put in jail but at least it's more interesting than taunting each other from across a line! I mean seriously...it's a game, if you lose you lose, no big deal. The point is to have fun.

Fire!

Ok everybody! I have quite the story to tell you!

Last night was a very eventful night for me. I was asleep in my bed and I randomly woke up and couldnt go back to sleep because my mind was playing tricks on me and I kept seeing shadows and hearing noises...yeah ok I was kinda scared. So I prayed for Gods protection and went to sleep. The next time I woke up I felt my lungs and eyes burning and in my sleepy mind I thought Dad started a fire in the wood stove in the next room, but soon I realized that was not wood smoke, and it was NOT in the next room! I rolled over and saw smoke billowing up right next to me. I jumped out of bed and ran to my parents room yelling to Dad that my bed was on fire. Dad rushed to my room flicked on the light to see my room filled with smoke and the bed billowing smoke. Running to my bed he grabbed the blankets off my bed just as they burst into flames, he threw them out my window but unfortuantly it landed on the wood pile so he had to run outside with the hose to put the fire out. Thinking the fire was out we left the room with the window open to let out the smoke. about 10 minutes later I told Dad it smelled funny again, he opened my door to find my bed on fire again! With a large charred hoel in my mattress. So now my mattress is out of commision and in a dumpster. And I have a sleeping bag and a couch to sleep on for the rest of Christmas break.

The amazing thing is how my bed burned, I was quite literaly curled right around the fire, yet I wasnt burned at all. My blankets that were directly on top of me were melted yet I was fine. I will never ever again underestimate the power of prayer, God protected me and woke me up just in time before my bed burst into flames. I am a very deep sleeper, I wake for nothing, yet less then a minute before it was too late God woek me up. Praise the Lord!

Stress!!!!!!!!

My goodness what a busy day! I have accomplished most of my check list but of course there's still a few things that just HAD to go wrong! Like I cant find the coat I was supposed to bring, and teh deans lost my cell phone, thankfully they have finally located IT! YAY!!! When you've only used your phone once you really dont want it getting lost before you can use it again! Everyone's been getting on my nerves today...Maybe because I'm stressed, I dunno. I feel bad, I hate not liking people.
We're leaving on Cali tour tomorrow...Oh and the stress continues! But it'll be fun...I hope. :) Time to hang out with people I dont usually get a chance to spend time with. For example, last year me and Heather were really close and I've barely seen her this year since she switched dorms. SO we're sitting together on the bus! :D
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!!!! And did I mention I can get on facebook this Cali tour???!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!! This is SOOOO exciting! EEEEP! I'm sorry...I realize I'm a geek, but I dont care! Anyways I need to go and be productive now!

I'm goin home

You know your forgetting Albanian when- You have a dream in Albanian and you cant understand most of what people are saying.
Isn't that pathetic??!! I'm gonna get home and when people talk to em I'll have to smile and nod and say "nuk kuptoj!" meaning "I dont understand." I'm so excited to go back to Albania! I was packing last night and first I thought to bring regular old ripped jeans, but then realized I would look like a street bum, we dont wear ripped jeans in Europe. It's a high fashion place. Not that I will ever dress in fashion, but I dont want to give the impression that Canada is a hole in the wall. So then I decided on some black flats but quickly remembered that the street I live on is so thick with garbage and mud that the flats just wouldn't do.
I'm afraid that a lot of things that were once normal will be weird. Like when people kiss your cheeks 2 or 4 times. Or boys hooting and whistling I'm quite afraid I'll have the urge to punch them. WHen before it was something girls get used to and ignore. Or merely crossing the street with all the horses and wagons and mopeds and bicycles.
The thing I must say I'm looking forward to the most, more then sleeping in my bed or eating Albanian pickles is seeing my gypsies! My little girls! What if they all forgot me? What if they dont recognize me? I miss them so much...I miss being a mommy to 30. There's something about them that makes you feel needed, and you are! And I love that feeling, walking down the street with 6 little kids holding your hands and tugging on your skirt all begging for ice cream. I LOVE IT!!!
And my little brothers! Their probably really tall and handsome and wont want to listen to the gummy bear song any more...Now that's sad!
Sometimes I look out the window at these Canadian mountains and ask God why on earth I'm here. I could be so many other places, most importantly Albania. I could do so much to help people and yet I'm in boarding school...in Canada. I mean how on earth did I end up here??? But then God reminds me that I still have growing to do, and I know he's right. I didnt hardly know him at all back then. I thought God was a genie who should grant my wishes and then leave me alone. Heaven was a fairy tale land that I would think about at night when I woke up from a nightmare to calm me down. I was told I was going to heaven but I told God to wait a while, I wanted to live my life first. Now I know how merciful he was for not coming, I wouldn't have been there.
Pray for 2 things. One that whoever I sit with on the plane will speak English! And second that they will be open to the gospel and they will be receptive because they have to sit with me for 13 hours and I think even the toughest nut can be cracked in 13 hours. ;)

Bitter.Old.Cat.Lady

Okey dokey! So I had the weirdest dream last night! I'm sure you reallyn dont care to hear it but I'll tell it anyway! Ok...so I was living in bible times and I met this guy who led a caravan of runaways out of the city to a far off place, since it was illegal to leave the city at this certain time because there was a decree to kill all the cats and people were trying to escape with tehir kittys. So I decided to escape with my cat and go to Jerusalem where my grandma lived and my cat would be safe. because the secret police were already on the hunt for my cat.

Wow...I am already well on my way to becoming a bitter old cat lady! :P Dont ask me why IO dreamed about this...I dont even have a cat! But I think it was because I went to bed at 12:30 because thats when we got back from tour. Which was pretty fun! Me and Saraiah stayed up talking all night. :) ANd today will be a good day. I will edit my devotionals...again. And do some math homework, and mark my GC...and clean my room, and then I'll probably wrap presents. You know whats weird about me? I dont enjoy doing nothing anymore, I love that sense of accomplishment to have FINISHED! And I WILL finish my list today. And then I can read...oh for the days when I could read all day! Anyways, christmas break is coming soon! like 21days 22 hours and 35 minutes!!!! Yes...I'm a dork, gotta problem with that?

It's almost open house! It is in fact 2 days until open house. :)
I had a very peachy day. I got my 18th devotional! One more to go!!!!!!! I just have to edit the rest, it's been really fun writing them, I really enjoy it. :D It snowed again today! But it's not that cold yet, only 15 right now. I am hungry! I bought some ramen and then found out it was beef flavored...I hate beef flavoring, it's icky. I realze this is not a very interesting post...
OHH!!! The water went out today! So I really am craving a shower at the moment. And we're having a concert today too, which means that I need to clean my room, put on my unform, find my black flats that went missing, take a shower, curl my hair aaaaaaaaaand pack my trombone all before 5:00. I should get going!

COUGAR!

It was Sabbath night after sundown (which happened to be at 4:30) This also happened to be last night.
So there were several activities to do, there was a health video at the school building and there was capture the flag. I chose capture the flag! But unfortunately not many others did, there was a total of 8 of us but we still went out to play. The boundaries were huge. From the saw mill to the dorm. Me and Heather were assigned the duty of guarding the flag at the saw mill building. It was kinda scary....it was dark and we couldn't see anything. But gradually our eyes ajusted. :) BUt soon after we got there we heard this noise, we stopped to listen and heard this "meow!" We both nearly jumped out of our skin as a cute little black cat came trotting out of the building! We were very glad it was just a cat and quickly settled into ditches on either side of the road to await the enemy. We were there for quite sometime when we heard someone coming. Unfortunately the cat was being very loud and running from me to heather meowing and purring. BUt alas it wasnt the enemy at all! The rest of our teammates (CHelsea and Tristha) had gotten lost in the dark. SO we switched places and me and heather set out on the journey to find the flag which was at the tree house.
We came to the first freshly plowed field and knowing that the enemy could be anywhere we crawled across the field on our hands and knees until finally reaching the tall grassy hill where we could hide then we stopped in our tracks. There was the enemy! Walking along the top of the hill, we waited until she was out of sight, walking towards the sawmill and then we booked it up that hill, crouching and running, trying to be quiet. Then a few feet from the top heather pulled me to a stop. "There's a guard 10 feet from you" I looked around in a panic and saw a figure crouching in the shadows, "well" I said "lets tag her before she tags us" I sprang into action and ran at her, she jumped up and ran at me but my hand whipped out and (I didn't mean to get her in her face) tagged her face....very hard. I felt really bad! But after all...this is wartime.
We soon figured out it was dawn. and now she was on out team! SO we all set out across the field but slowly realized the guards would be able to see us since the school building lights were shining directly on the field. SO we set to rolling...I got really dizzy but we rolled across quite a large portion of the field until we got so dizzy we had to stop and find our senses. Then we crawled, just before we reached the fields edge we heard Ellen yell that time was up and we had to go back to the dorm. It was disappointing but we still had fun! So we set off in two groups, we walked in the middle of teh feild while the people comign from saw mill walked farther away on the edge of the far field. We were just approaching the hill to the dorm and were planning to walk straight up, when we heard a noise and stopped. A growl, no...like...I cant describe it but it was the sound a cougar makes. And a rustle in the tall grass. Someone bolted but I grabbed her before she went too far. me and heather barked out directions "Keep calm! Don't run! Everybody make a lot of noise but DON'T SCREAM!" SO we all started singing "we have this hope" while walking quickly away, glancing behind us to make sure we wwere'nt being followed. We reached the otehr group whon were talkign and laughing and I yelled the first thing that came to my mind "theres a l-lion behind us!" They laughed and said "yeah we know here's the lion" and threw the little black cat at us. "NO! there's a mountain lion right behind us!!!" I nearly screamed. We all stayed in a little group until we reached the orchard, then we rn. I have never run so fast in my life, I didnt know I could humanly run like that. All I remember was trees whipping by as I flew to the school building. They weren't finished watching the movie but I burst in the auditorium (did I mention I was wearing camo pajamas, a camo head scarf and war paint?) I burst in and saw John L turn around I quickly stammered out "c-c-c-cougar! I-i-i-in the field!" John jumped up and came out to the lobby and a whole stream of boys came with him, I think the movie emptied because everyone was out in the hall! I explained what happened and he had me call Mr James and I told the story again. MR James said he'd drive out there to see what he could see. He radioed John sometime later to tell us that it was a prank some girls had pulled on us. I was smoking mad!
Long story short it wasn't the girls. They were in a completely different place, far away from us, making different noises. This thing was 10 feet away.
We talked it all out long into the night before we discovered this fact. I am amazed at how God protected us the whole night! I was crawling through the very same grass. I could have came upon that cougar all by myself, or it coudl have pursued us. But God was there protecting us all the way throguh. And nwo we know that he was protectign us all the other times we've played night games, or goen runnign before light. He protects us every day and we dont even know it. Praise God for showing us what he has been doing!

Oh my poor neglected blog...I haven't written is SO long!
It's the weekend again!!!!!!!1 WHOOOOT!! Saraiah is coming over later to get ready for vespers with me so I must leave soon. But I will update you my best!
Devotionals are coming along I have 8 turned in, 4 more that need editing and that's it...
OOOH! But I was very proud of myself because I got up at 5:30! WHOOT! Go Mia! Anyhow..Wow is my life that boring? I talk about homework and how early I got up? I miss those exciting days....I honestly am missing being home schooled. I could get so much more done if I didn't have to work. And I could take all the courses I want to take. :) I am getting majorly excited about college! I am really leaning towards CUC but Southern is also an option, Andrews....mayeb I dont want to but some guy gave me a thingi to make my application free. And he said I could share it so if anyone wants it come talk to mee! But honestly...I dont want to go to Andrews. Oh well...God will work it out! I dont need to worry about it.

Did I mention I'm going home soon???!!!!!!! First time in 2 years!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!! It will be kinda weird though, haveing not been there for so long and then being thrust back into the culture. With all the disgusting guys who whistle and cat call every time you leave your door. Thats gonna suck...

Quack....

It's almost international supper!!!! But unfortunately I doubt I'll be eating anything. Mia is sick.... :( My stomach is having severe issues, the pain gets so bad I haven't slept a whole night through this week, I lost 8 pounds this week... :S Kinda scary, but hey! I've never been this light since I was like 11! WHOOT! I went to the hospital but the doctor was a quack...he knew nothing. Seriously! He gave me some pills but he didn't know what was wrong with me.
On a brighter note! I'm going home soon! :) I happy! This is SUCH a busy time of year! I have a week until end of term and I have SOOOOOO many homework projects due! have no idea how I'll finish it all in time. I guess I'll just have to do my best and leave the rest up to God!
Anyway, I'd love to stay and chat but I need to go clean my room before room check. And change...since I dont think camo pajamas are allowed at vespers. Though how awesome would that be?!

Mama....I'm going to Vegas

The Seniors just left on their Senior Survival! So Seth if your reading this tell Heathers mom goodbye!
It was really funny watching them all run around screaming when the announcement came that they were leaving. I must say....now is the time to be glad I'm a Junior! The sad part is that Eddy and Sam will be gone for my vespers. And I reeeeeeeeeeeeeally wanted them there! Their my support system. :P They people who sit in the front row and grin at you. But on the bright side there's less people there so it's less scary. Chris and Mason said they'll be my cheerleaders on the front row to replace the ones I lost...But it's not the same. Oh well, life goes on!
At least the cafe will be quiet with the loud people gone! Well....with Joel gone! :P

I almost got to work front desk today! Because the seniors were gone....but the trouble is I go to school when the Seniors work. I told Alyssa I could just switch classes and go to class with 11 B but....she said no, so now Mason has the job. Boo! :(
And I have to hold down the trombone section all by myself!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Eh, I'll be OK. Just felt like screaming in my mind for a second there. :D
It's almost time for break! WHOOOOOOOooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!! I'm going home! Er...FL! And I'm gonna see my Mommy and my Daddy and my Mima and my Poppy and eat seaweed and ice cream and Me will be a very happy girl!

OH! And I'm going to Vegas in February! Hehe...Doing some concerts there for 2 weeks. SOme advertizing or something I dunno, all I know is thast we're bringing our teachers with us so we can do school....in Las Vegas. This is so cool.

I LOVE WEEKENDS!!

Sundays are always my weirdest days! So, it started normally, I got up, made breakfast and my parents caLLED SO i talked to them for like an hour. But then.... Julie came into my room, and so did Hannah. So we had a party with candy and cheese puffs. Then I noticed my water bottle and remembered I had week old chia in it. So I started to open it and liquid came spewing out like old faithful. and IT SMELLED HORRIBLE!! Like sewer mixed with dirty socks and every disgusting smell you can think of. And it was in my room! SO I ran to the bathroom to dump it...so the hallway and bathroom smelled like it too. Well I live on main floor, so Rosa came to find out what the horrible smell in the lobby was....So she told me to bring it outside...so as of now it's sitting on the lawn. But my hand smelled like the grossness! SO I tried everything! I washed my hands like 5 times, then tried body wash on my hands, but they still smelled. SO I soaked them in baking soda, and then...as a last resort I tried eucalyptuses oil. But I regret to inform you that my hands still smell like rotten chia mixed with eucalyptuses. But I got the smell out of the dorm I ran through the building with air freshener, and I washed my blankets. And aired out my pillows and my teddy bear. But it's super duper windy! So my teddy bear flew off the porch headed for the cliff! SO I chased down the runaway and instead aired them out by the lobby window. OH! But I did manage to get something done today! I cleaned my room really super well so to get the smell out. ;) Thats right...my life rocks.

Food changes people...

Oh what a weird life I live!
OK...So here I am, innocently making mac n cheese. When Raina comes into my room and sits down at my desk ooing and awing over my vitamins which are sitting on it. Then Hannah smelling my cheese comes running in saying "Moriah feed me too!" You see...as Shenel put it, Hannah is like a bear, you can feed her, but she'll always come back for more. :P So anyway, in her excitement to get food she grabbed Raina's hand which happened to be swollen from a bee sting. So she screamed "AOOOOWWWWWWW!!!!!! DONT TOUCH MY HAND YOU FREAK!!!" And then ran from the room to Morgans room with Hannah howling behind her that she's sorry! So behind locked door Raina listened to Hannah pound ont eh door for 10 minutes straight yelling that she's sorry! and dont hate me! OPEN THE DOOR! Things such as this... Then she finally left and came back to the computer where I was typing this and ate some of my mac n cheese, along with Shenel. That is...she and shenel ate mac and cheese....Not Hannah ate shenel and cheese....

Well, we're about to go camping! Again....to stryne for my 4th time. I thought about bringing homework but I think it would just ruin it.
Oh guess what! When I go home for thanksgiving break I'm flying through Salt Lake City! Which will be cool, because I've never been to that airport before so I can have fun navigating around! :) I decided that I'm going to try to witness on the plane this time. I'm always to shy to talk to people so this is the time where I break out of my shell!
Oh and I have narrowed down my college options! It's between Southern, Andrews, CUC, Union, or some college in the middle of nowhere in some foreign country! :)
But before that I have to do a few things on my things to do before I die.
AHHHH! Gotta go! Bus is leaving!

CAMPING!

And we're off to go camping! Well...tomorrow morning that is, I am SOOOOOOO excited now! I was bummed people left on tour but now I am extremely excited about camping! There's just something super exciting about getting to cook your own food! Over a fire! I packed SOOO much food! All my meals are planned out in my head! EEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! Happyness! I'm SO bringing mac n cheese!

So.Darn.Lonely!

I have this depressed sinking feeling. Mixed chorus just left on tour. And with hem they took pretty much all my best friends and people I hang out with. It's really sad.
And now I am NOT in the mood to do the homework that I know I need to do. I think I'm gonna like...drown my sorrows in ramen or something. I'm SO dang lonely! I want my Mommy...

HAPPY DAY!

Today is a good day!
I finished 2 devotionals and turned them in, I'm working cafe, and I have a voice lesson and a brass lesson this afternoon. AAAAAAAAND Mrs Hinds came in before wake up to tell em I had a phone call, so I sleepily dragged myself out of bed, wrapped my blanket around me so as to be approved and went out to answer the phone, but alas the phone's weren't turned on yet so Mrs Hinds went to do that while I talked to my Dad on the main phone line where he told me that I get to come home on thanksgiving break!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOT! P.A.R.T.Y!!!!!!! This is fun...this is a happy time. OH! And we're going campign this weekend! Although the work list says I'm going on Oregon Tour....So I need to go straighten some things out later.
Fall picnic was yesterday, it was fun. There was lots of pie :) Which made me happy. And we played an awesome game which included running and smuggling things and the bad guys also known as the nationalists could search the christians for 30 seconds if they caught you to try to find the bibles you were smuggling. I was a christian. :) So as I was running along a couple nationalists also known as Katie and David, saw me and started chasing me, so while still running I did a cool roll up onto the wall above the science lab lawn into the orchard and then did somewhat of a (fail) at a handspring onto the level above that one and I cut up my hands...But no worries! I got Chris's knife and cleaned it out all nice. :D It hurt though... Anyway then I attempted apple bobbing. When they Sophomore guys saw how bad I was they all wanted to go against me. So I tried against Broch, Brenan, Jordan, and Chris. And I failed every time. So I just kept trying until I got one. But by that time I was drippign wet, my whole head, (hair and all) and my shirt so I rung my shirt and hair out a bit but I was still FREEZING during worship since the sun went down.
I meant to do more Sunday morning but I ended up in Saraiah's room listening to her moms story's about her life as a hippy when she was my age. IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!! She is SOOOOOOO cool!!!!!!! But not to worry I still got half of my to do list done.And tonight I plan on spending my whole free time finishing the rest of it. Then in study hall I need to get ahead in Bible 11 homework. Mostly GC reading, and some group posts and such. Since I'm already ahead in devotionals I can take a break from that for a few nights to do Bible. OOO!!!! And we're doing PE testing tomorrow! I can finally see how many push ups I can do!
Plus I'm pretty psyched because Saraiah's mom (being a nurse or mid wife or whatever) Knows how much a girl of my height should weigh. and I'm 10 pounds below. SO I'm very happy! Of course that probably also means that I should be buffer cause muscle weighs more then fat. But whatever I'm still pretty psyched! Anyway...I jsut realized just how long this post is so you probably wont get to the end of it and read this so I should stop writing. Have a nice day!

Trombones.Are.AWESOME!

Okey dokes! I'm officially the schools trombone player!!!!! :) I'm so excited!!!!!!! And also ironic because the last trombone was Wesley Mayes...Different spelling but still awesome! I think it's going to be a lot of fun! Even though I'll have to not sing as much as I did last year. :( But oh well, it's still uberly exciting! Oh and in response to a question asked me an RA is like a student dean. They answer phones, make announcements and check people in at night. Anyway I'mm off to write devotionals for English class! Cheers!

TROMBONES RULE!!!!!

Alrighty y'all! You are currently reading the blog of a trombone player!!!!!! :D Well....Maybe. Hehe, I'm auditioning tonight to see if I have any natural talent. ;) If I dont then I'll take the hint that God still has things to teach me as a violinist. But I really hope that he wants me to play trombone! Oh and did I mention there's a possibility I can be a RA? :) Yes....life is good.

Alrighty! Well I have successfully finished my first devotional! Oh did I mention my class is writing one for English? Maybe I'll post it later....
Anyway I had a really good day today! I went to the Corrigans for help with math and wrote a devotional made a card for my Secret Sister and other then that I've relaxed! It's been a good day...My check list for today reads as follows
1.Clean Room
2. Visit People
And that sums up my to do list! Ohhh...and I need to call my Mom seeing as something very important and relevant to school has come up! So Mom if you reading this....call me.

Stress :(

Ok, lets see if I can write this in the 5 minutes I have before music practice!
I am SOOOOOOOOOO stressed out right now! I have mountains of homework and music to learn and my rooms a mess and I haven't had any time to clean it. I haven't seen my friends hardly at all... :( But on the upside I got to drive the cube van today in work and it was AWESOME! I got to almost run over seniors! :P jk...I wouldn't have...really...*shifty eyes* Anyway it was fun!

I am so happy it's almost Sabbath!!!!!!! I love sabbath soooooo much! Best day of the week! And Friday night is so amazing! OO! and did I mention I'm doing vespers soon? :) And a dorm worship too.
We did PE testing today....wow...We ended up running while the sprinklers were on in the field so we got all wet and muddy. And did I mention my hair got all curly since I cut it? When it's wet especially...boo. So I looked funny all day. I'm so glad the days almost over! I'm gonna clean my room tonight. :) And take a shower, thanks to all the mud from PE...yeah that was lovely. Good thing I like dirt!
Anyways I have to go to practice before I get in trouble.

Life.Is.BUSY!

Ok, sorry I haven't written in a while I've been uber busy with school and stuff. We're starting to write the devotional, and I have some major math homework that's really hard, aaaaand I have to start researching for Bible 1 on Daniel and Revelation. Oh and did I mention this year is super weird? I'm changing! I guess it's for the better but it's strange. Ok...so I ran in PE. Me...Moriah I RAN! I kept up with Morgan Barrow! Which is quite the accomplishment will have you know! And I went for a run early this morning, and did home work (something I never do) I've been doing it faithfully every night. I even ate salads int eh cafe!!!! And turned in every unapproved thing I own, and to top it off every free moment I have I spent studying.....that's big. Oo...and on the down side we had voce lessons today with Craig....I think I did bad, of course I never think I do good. Probably cause I never do! Hehe, kinda a bummer though cause most of my friends got into mixed chorus. Oh well, no biggy. I will attempt at brushing things off, something I desperately will need to do this year. Well I really need to go study, this is the longes I've spent doing something fun in a long while.

Sweetie...do you need shoes?

OH MY WORD!!!!!!! The FUNNIEST thing just happened! Ok...So there's this girl on my hall who's new so I went and introduced myself and answered their many questions. And then she found out I was a missionary when she had learned this valuable bit of information she then proceeded to tell me that she had put some things in the ADRA bin so I should feel free to look through. I about died trying not to laugh! Same lady who when they visited last winter and saw me wearing boots that were ducktaped together stopped me in the road and said "sweetie, do you need some shoes?" OH MY GOODNESS!!!! I love them already! heir SO cute!!!! And they have the sweetest accents their from my neck o the woods in TN! WHOOOO GO SOUTHERNERS!! I can tell I'm gonna like these people...Come to think of it I should have said yes on the shoes! :P

New Year, here I come!!!

I just had the most amazing morning! And ya know what? I actually like working! No wait...I LOVE IT! I've been working janitorial and I found that I really enjoy cleaning things to perfection. :) AAAAAAAAAAAND I got to drive the cube van! :) And there's tons of people arriving! Mostly new people...I'm doing my best to be all friendly and welcoming...Cause usually I'm shy so this year will be the change! And cause Rosa told me the reason she put me in the room I'm in on main floor was because there was lots of new people on my hall and I'm friendly...I dont know where she got that cause I thought I was pretty anti-social! But since she thinks that I'll do my best to live up to expectations!
I'm just SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!! All of my best buddies are coming today!!! I missed them so much...It's a little weird too though because after being a new person for a year I'm finally old! :P It will be weird at first to have new people join our "family" I mean thats what we are...we're so close. We always look out for each other and encourage one another. But I'm also excited to be able to be that person who makes the new people feel at home. :)

I'm slightly worried about our split class, our class will be split into 2 this year so I dont know who's in what class and I'm kinda scared I wont be with my friends. I dont want us to drift apart...Especially my best friend. But I guess there's no sense worrying about it since I cant change it I might as well embrace it! I think that should be my new motto. :P Anyway I have to go to work so I shall try to blog next week after the first camp out! :D

Mission Weeding-COMPLETE!

I just had my LAST DAY WEEDING!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEP!!!!!!1
Ok...I'm officially excited to celebrate I curled my hair. Ok that sounded odd and a bit vain. But you see after a whole summer of not trying to do anything with my hair I'm starting to feel quite grungy. So it's a very pleasant feeling to feel pretty again! :)

And everyone's starting to come back! I'm so happy...I feel like squealing and jumping and singing all at once...which is exactly what I did on my way back from weeding when I was very sure that I was alone in the field. Tee hee! And tomorrow....Ah what wonderful words! Tomorrow I will scream muchly! :)

OK!!!!! SO It's 2 days until everyone comes back to school! Needles to say I'm super duper excited! :) It's gonna be a great year!!!
The only trouble is auditions...I HAAAAAAATE auditions! And I have to do 2! :( And since I haven't practiced all summer my skills are...well...lacking. :P And as for my voice auditions I always get really nervous and end up singing way too quietly. And now it's time for breakfast! And since eating is one of my favorite things to do I shall bid you farewell!

GLOWING

I had the WEIRDEST dream last night! I was was walking down the street and I saw a man packing a bunch of books in boxes somehow I knew he was packing up an old library. So I stopped to help him and I was trying to figure out how to give him a GLOW track. So I asked if he liked to read and he said yes so I was about to give him a GLOW track but then I realized I didn't have any with me. So right then a guy from FVA walked by and he stopped and gave me a GLOW to give to the guy. It was really odd...

Hear My Cry (It's not finished yet)

Hear My Cry (Free Verse)

God why don’t you answer

Why don’t you hear?

His voice calling out to you

A voice filled with fear

He needs your help

He needs your caring hand

Why don’t you hear him?

Just help him to stand,

Hear my cry oh Lord,

I’ve tried it on my own,

And now I know you are there

To hear my prayer

Oh Lord hear my humble prayer,

He’s running away,

From life and from you,

The life you have chosen is fading from view,

He looks to the world for comfort and peace,

When will he see that you’re all that he needs?

By Moriah Mays

Moving again!

It's finally the weekend! We went to the lake yesterday for Ethan's baptism, it was really nice. :) And now today I can actually spend 1 whole day doing whatever I want!!!!!!! Oh what an amazing idea...So I shall spend my day unpacking my room...again. I just moved again from the Senior girls dorm over across campus again to the other girls dorm. We have 3. I've moved SOOO many times in the past year! I guess it matches the rest of my life! It would be weird if I didn't move I guess...

Anyway so school is starting again in 2 weeks. Seems like last summer is so far away...like it was years ago. This summer has gone by so fast but also so slow. Like it seems like it's been forever since it was school but also like it was yesterday.
I have a whole bunch to do in the organizing of my room so I should get to it. I am utterly determined to have it completely finished by tonight!

Thankful

Ok y'all! I am officially talented! I ripped a hole in both knees of every pair of jeans I own that fit me...the rest are too big now. Not sure what I'm gonna wear to work...a skirt I think would be a little...um...Yeah no. Anyway, I got up 5 min before work today because we started at 6. Did I ever mention I'm not a morning person? I was grumpy all morning because it was really cold, wet and I was tired. Then the song "Thankful" By Josh Groban came on and I felt bad. Lately I've been working on smiling. And no it's not just because Craig bugs me about it so much during choir. It's because everything gets a little better when you smile, even if your having a bad day.

The extra time at work gave me time to do a lot of thinking. I was thinking about what job to get next summer, and in my sleepy delusional mind this is what I came up with. I could work at a day camp that I went to when I was 10. It's in Michigan, and since I dont have a house I could live in a tent in the woods...and have a little garden and eat only cucumbers for the whole summer. Yeah...I was REALLY tired! You see all the jobs that I came up with didn't feed you, so I would either starve or eat off a garden. I thought about dumpster diving but...I think that's a little low...and gross. I mean...it's not cause I cant afford food, I just dont wanna waste money on it! :P Yes, I realize that my logic is messed up a little.

YOU have a purpose

I wish people didn't make assumptions...What would life be like if everyone saw everyone else exactly the way they were? Like...what if all the bad people were ugly and all the nice people were beautiful? Like a reflection of their characters. Well...I suppose there would be a whole lot more ugly people in the world then beautiful ones. But it would be so much easier that way....

Sometimes I have no hope for humanity. People are so darn stubborn! I mean...I'm FAR from perfect but at least I try! So many people go through life content with being average. Well I dont want to be one of those people. God created me for a purpose, I'm not a accident, nobody is. Whether their parents meant to have them or not God knew them before they ever existed and he knew who they would be. He had a purpose for every one of them! I just wish everyone would see that.
While at ASI I got a job offer in India, and one in Ireland, both missionary positions. But I also had at least 10 people trying to convince me that I HAD to go to college. One man told me "NO matter what you must go to college, you'll never make any money otherwise and you will always regret it!." Well Mr...I dont care about money! Why are people so obsessed with money???? All I want is to spread the gospel! There is SO little time left! All the signs are happening showing the soon return of Christ! And when he comes...I dont want to say "Lord I was going to do something for you in 10 or 12 years, you know...after I finished high school, college and med school, made some money and then gave a little bit to poor people."
No. I dont care what it takes I WILL go into all nations preaching the gospel. Whether I get paid or not, God will provide.

Pet peeves and oh so much more!

Don't you just HATE decisions!!!???? Ok....so maybe you dont. But I do! Actually here's a list of things hate
1.Loud things
2. Conflict
3.Bell Peppers
5. Making big decisions
6. Spiders

So you see there's not THAT many things I hate! Although I probably forgot some stuff...OH! I hate heights too. :) And elevators. Maybe I should just make lists of all kinds of things! AHA! That I shall!

hings I'm afraid of
1.Elevators
2.Heights
3.Spiders
4.The dark (ok I dont mean sleeping with a night light, but I really hate going places by myself in the dark)

Pet peeves
1. Loud things and or people
2. Singing off tune.
3. People eating with their mouths open.
4. Foul language.

Well now you know exactly how to tick me off! I wont go into all the things I like because that would just take waaaaay too long! I absolutely love life! And if I said all the wonderful things about it....well that would be one long post!

Dads, Dirt, and Diarys!

I just got back from work! In fact my hands and feet are still covered with mud...actually...all of me is! :) But that's OK! I had quite the day...I spent the entire work period this afternoon being quizzed about who I liked. *sigh* Why are girls so darn insistent that I have to like somebody?! What happened to the good ole days when boys had cooties? That was a simpler life...But moving on!
I'm really happy! We're getting ready to go to ASI next week! :D I'm soooo excited! I get to see all my friends from school and even my childhood best friend who lives down there. Plus concerts and that stuff to do. We have practice tomorrow night for our concerts at ASI.
OOOooOOO00OO! Guess what we did yesterday!!!!!!!!!! We went out for pizza!! Ok...that sounds small, but being at FVA and going out for pizza is quite a big thing! lol And then when we got back we went swimming and had a seaweed fight. :)
I cant wait for school to start, I miss people, and I miss having my own room too. I mean my roommates are totally sweet! But I guess I'm just a quiet person. I can take people for only so long, then I need time to retreat back to the silence of my room. I'm like my Mom that way I guess. I also discovered that me and my Dad have becoem a lot closer after I came to FVA. We didnt spend a whole lot of time together growign up but since I left home we've become a lot better friends! I mean...there's still misunderstandings, one happened a week or so ago actually. It cost me a good friend but...It meant a lot to know that my Dad cared that much about me to step into something he thought would hurt me. I knwo this probably is all jumbled and doesnt make sense. But this blog is pretty much my diary! I stopped writing in my paper one years ago...it's just easier this way. So you privileged few have the opportunity to take a peek into my diary!

Oh what a day! My roommates both woke up and left before I got out of bed... :) I like sleeping...Anyway so we went to work and about an hour before work ended we had to get off the cart and weed by hand...Well that was fun, NOT. But I decided to make the ebst of it and weed as fast as possible so I could finish quicker! And even though it was cold windy and rainy I was warm because I was moving so much. *grins* So we got off work early cause we finished so fast. SO now I'm at the dorm making mac n cheese! I'm really not sure how to make it...I'm just guessing because I dont have anything to measure with. :P I hope it's good!
I'm SOOOO excited! Campmeetign is this weekend! EEEEEEEEEEEEEP! And then a week after that is ASI double EEEEEEEEEEEEEP! And after ASI thats when all the peopel start flooding back in! And then Rosa comes back and I can move back to the other dorm. :)

Ok I was wrong....my mac n cheese is....icky. But I'll still eat it! It's still mac n cheese! :D I really should start a cooking show....Like a dorm cooking show, all the ways to make food in a dorm room without using a stove! All you really need is any type of food, a rock, your fingers, and possibly a microwave! Possibly a pencil for stirring...

Change

Oh goody!!!!!!!! My blog finally works again! I apologize profusely for not blogging for the past...month. My blog wasn't really working, and now it is!!! YAYYYYYY!!

So I'm going back to school on Sunday and then a lot of changes take place. I have to move dorms, to the Senior girls dorm all the way across campus by the school building. I have a roomate, which I think will be fun! I think... And then once school starts their splitting my class in half to make 2 classes which really sucks. But oh well! Some things ya cant change. I would write more but I have to go close up all my internet business before tomorrow! Well..at least all the blocked ones!

Friday Evening

Well here I am, Friday afternoon sitting in the computer lab waiting for supper because there was a mis-communication about a sophomore meeting that never happened.
But on the bright side I made a record for how fast I can get ready for vespers! I straightened my hair in a whole 5 minutes! My room didn't exactly pass room check though because I was so busy packing that I forgot, so my room is filled with boxes and bags!
This is the last weekend we have before grad! AHHHH! So exciting!!!!!!!!! And kinda scary...But exciting!!!! And what makes it more exciting is that I'm getting baptized at this grad. :)

It's almost over!

Just got back from Sophomore camp out last night! It was a blast! I was quite proud of myself for exherting effort and being the 2nd person and 1st girl to get to Stryne and I did it in a whoppin 1:20 minutes! HEEHEE!
I've had quite the weekend! And currently yearbooks are being passed around to be signed and we have 8 days of school left! It's very exciting! Especially since daddy is bringing Albanian spaghetti sauce to FL for me!
It's kinda weird that my sisters getting married in a couple weeks...I always thought it would be years and years away but now here it is creeping up already! I have a feeling I'll be shedding quite a few tears in the next month! With Grad and weddings and goodbyes and hello's.
Well I should be going now, I have a whole room to pack up! The Sophomores have a weird wacky schedule right now, we have free tie and study hall in the morning then one period of work then lunch then 2 periods of work and one period of class then orchestra then supper then 2 more classes then we go to bed...Recording is messing up our lives!!! Oh well...

Outreach

And I am off on the 2nd day of sophomore outreach! :) My partner for today is Sierra. :) *grins* I'm a little nervous cause last time I ran into quite a few drunk dudes and big scary dogs...and one lady who had Marijuana growing outside her door....yeeeeah....This should be interesting! But God really blessed last time! Hannah and I did 2 Bible studies and we got 14 contacts! :) And Julie and Sarah had a really cool expiriance! They knocked at one door and the man said he had seen 3 fountainviewers walk by knocking on doors a while before, funny thing is, we dont have any groups with 3 people in them. Beth and Morgan had walked by earlier but the man was working in his garden and they didnt want to disturb him. I thought that was a REALLY cool experience! And it's amazing to see how God works. I really hope I can have a good experience today! Last time....We knocked on the door and I hadn't lifted my hand off the door before it flew open and a man stepped out. Hannah said "Hi I'm Hannah and this is my friend Moriah and-" "Hello! I am South American!" Was his response holding out his hand to shake. We shook his hand and continued on in the health survey, but for every question he either answered "NO!" Or jabbered on in....some language about something. Then we asked him for his name, he couldn't remember it....Did I mention he was stoned? VERY stoned! He went inside and told us to come in, Hannah was scared and I probably should have been but I wasn't, so I walked in his tiny dark hole in the wall that was engulfed in smoke. ANd he gave me an envelope with his name and address on it. As I said...interesting experience!

16 weird things in the last year

Well I was just looking at a post from last may and I had a "15 weird things I've done in the last 15 years." So I think I should make a new one! 16 weird things I've done in the last year. :)

1. Put fake cockroaches in the dorm shower
2. Put grease and salt on the dorms toilet seat
3. Sprayed someones room with axe
4. Dressed Muslim in the airport to see what reaction I got
5. Climbed a coconut tree in Hawaii
6. Fell out of a coconut tree in Hawaii. ;)
7. Ate dirt in the carrot field
8. Dyed part of my hair green.
9. Drove a bobcat and hit a trailer with it.
10.Drove a riding lawn mower and hit a tree
11.Drifted around a corner on a lawn mower, then it got stuck...
12. Got my leg stuck in a tree while pruning it and had to have my boss pull me out.
13. Got stuck on the dock in the pond cause I didn't want to jump back in the freezing April water, then got "rescued" by Mr James and a guy in my class. Ended up just jumping in out of pure embarrassment.
14. Joined a country band and went around campus serenading staff homes.
15. Was running in snow on a camp out and fell in...all the way with my hands sticking out.
16. After 6 years of growing my hair out...I cut it all off.

This should totally be an all girls school...

Had the most AMAZING weekend ever! There was absolutely no guys on campus! Girls free time all weekend!!! We had a blast! We made a little band with all kinds of impromptu instruments including a jug of popcorn, a Jones bottle, and a breadbasket made of chicken wire and a spoon. I'll post a picture later, :P. Then last night Rosa suggested a "fashion Show" I deceided that it was suddenly past my bedtime until she explained the rules. She would make a bunch of wacky color combo's or prints and then number them off and we'd all get one. And we only had 15 minutes to get it all together, the object of the game was to be wacky. I drew all black so of course I HAD to play! So I put on a leather matrix style trench coat, a fedora, sunglasses, and black shirt and pants, then for effect I drew on a mustache and goatee with eye liner. Everybody said I looked like Johnny Depp and was extremely freaked out! Bur Rosa made me wash the mustache off...:( But not to fear! I have a picture! :P We had quite the weekend! And I still managed to clean my room and write 2 essays today! And now I'm off to practice my 90 minutes! I bid you farewell!

My icky yearbook picture....bleh

I miss being a mom!

Well I was just thinking today how sad it is how many people I've lost contact with since coming to Fountainview! Like my childhood best friend that I'd had since I was a baby, anyway I decided to reminisce! I WANNA BE A KID! It was so darn fun! Right now I want nothing more then to be in 8th grade again, in my kitchen making a sandwich with mustard, pickles and cheese, with my little brothers screaming in the background about Mario kart. And going for motorcycle rides with daddy, and playing in the sprinklers with my dogs, and having all my girls follow me as I do the shopping for their lunch. I miss my kids! I miss being a mommy to 50 girls!

Some pics from Hawaii and early this spring